FALLING SLOWLY

I don’t know you
But I want you
All the more for that

Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can’t react

And games that never amount
To more than they’re meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We’ve still got time
Raise your hopeful voice, you have a choice
You’ll make it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can’t go back

Moods that take me and erase me
And I’m painted black

You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It’s time that you won

Falling slowly sing your melody
I’ll sing it loud

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY

Mother’s day is fast approaching. 💔💔💔

Losing a mother is a pain that cannot be described in words. It is impossible to move on from the memory of losing the woman who sacrificed happiness in her own life so that you could have a better one. A mother’s love is truly irreplaceable. If you are finding it hard to cope with your mom’s death. No matter what I do to move on from this pain, deep down inside I will always know that I’ll never get to hug my mom again. I miss you. 🙁😔😢

To my mama, my friend, my angel, I would like to take this chance to greet a Happy Mother’s Day. Mama, I know you are listening from the heavens above.There’s nothing that I value more, than your love. No matter where I am or what I am doing, your memories will always keep me smiling. Though I can never repay you for your love and care, I cant miss to express my gratitude, love and reverence on this beautiful day of the year. You are always in my heart. You’re my one and only mom, and I’ll always have a special place in my heart for you. 💕💕💕

It’s been a 6 years. And I miss you a lot. If I ever given the chance I hope I could see you again and hug you tightly. I hope I could say to you personally that I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. SO MUCH. 😢😢😢

FALLEN (Cover by Gibbson and Vince)

FALLEN BY JANNO GIBBS

Cover by Gibbson (Guitarist) and Vince (Back up)

Our little conversations are turning into little sweet sensations
And they’re only getting sweeter every time
Our friendly get-togethers are turning into visions of forever
If I just believe this foolish heart of mine

REFRAIN
I can’t pretend that I’m just a friend
‘Cause I’m thinkin’ maybe we were meant to be

CHORUS
I think I’m fallin’, fallin’ in love with you
And I don’t, I don’t know what to do
I’m afraid you’ll turn away
But I’ll say it anyway

I think I’m fallin'(fallin’) for you
I’m fallin'(fallin’) for you

Whenever we’re together, I’m wishin’ that goodbyes would turn to never
‘Cause with you is where I always wanna be
Whenever I’m beside you, all I really wanna do is hold you
No one else but you has meant this much to me

REFRAIN
I can’t pretend (no) that I’m just a friend (I’m just a friend)
‘Cause I’m thinking maybe we were meant to be

CHORUS
I think I’m fallin’, fallin’ in love with you (I)
And I don’t, I don’t know what to do (yeah, yeah)
I’m afraid you’ll turn away (I’m afraid you’ll turn away)
But I’ll say it anyway (yeah)

I think I’m fallin’, fallin’ in love with you (I think I’m fallin’)
And I don’t, I don’t know what to do (and I don’t know what to do)
I’m afraid you’ll turn away (I’m afraid you’ll turn away)
But I’ll say it anyway (anyway)
I think I’m fallin'(fallin’) for you
I’m fallin'(fallin’) for you

CODA
I’m fallin’, I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’, fallin’ for you
And I don’t know what to do, yeah ye

To Move On

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I tried so hard to forget you

but I wont move on.

I changed my ways, lived without you

but it wont go on

I find my heart still holding on

and it wont let my feelings to find their home

The more I try to ignore you

my heart points to you and when I try to run from you

my mind thinks of you

i find myself crying at night and my tears wont stop falling

Cause my heart just stops from beating

until I say your name

But i will tell my mind. convince it

I don’t need you, I don’t

i will tell my heart, convince it

I don’t love you, I don’t and I will tell myself

that I can live without you

Though I’d be lying

at least I’m trying to move on

I tried to spend all my time

To find someone new

Someone who could take this love

That once was for you

But I don’t wanna fool someone

Just to make me feel alright

I need to get you off my mind

And so I will find a way.

One day I know id come to understand

you’re not meant to believe

that I’m the one that you need

until I understand.

The Unsend Letter

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If someone out there could grant me a wish. I wish that someday you will come back to me. And I will hold your heart here in my  hand for the longest time and there’s nothing more I could wish for because you are right here in my heart.

I just missed to be with you always. A thousand sweet words, a counted fighting, the unforgettable moments that we’ve gathered, a thousand tears. All of those will remain a memory to me. I just miss you that much.

I’m still hoping for ” the love is sweeter than the second time around.” where I can gained more hope, more miracles, more anything about you and us.

I hope and I wish that you will read this, smile and said” Hi, Vince. Thank you” – thank you for loving me.

There’s nothing wrong in loving you secretly. All I know is, I am much more me when I’m with you. 

 

2017:A New Beginning

2016 — I’m Ready To Let You Go
I’m ready.

I’m ready to let you go. I’m ready to say goodbye to my favorite parts of you, the special memories, the moments I wish I could rewind. I’m ready to let them go, I’m ready to loosen my grip and welcome new ones. I’m ready to let the moments I loved slip through my fingers and go make new ones.

I learned.

I learned the lessons you were trying to teach me. I learned from the pain, from the heartbreak, from the betrayal, from the tears, from the mistakes and from my own shortcomings. I learned the hard ones; you were hard on me sometimes but I’m thankful for the lessons because I hope I’m a little bit wiser, a little bit stronger and a lot more resilient because of them.

I forgive you.

I forgive you for putting me through hard times, I forgive you for not making the good times last longer, I forgive you for being stubborn, for not turning things exactly the way I want them to and I mostly forgive you for all the lonely nights. In a way, they made me fearless, in a way, they taught me how to enjoy my own company and in a way, they made me unafraid of loneliness.

I love you.

I love you for all the blessings you gave me, for the times I spent smiling, for the all the times I laughed with my friends and the times I stayed up talking to someone I love. I love you for the moments when you made me feel invincible and for the moments you made me feel alive and for the ones that will live me with me forever. I love you for being so memorable, so unforgettable and so breathtaking.

I’ll miss you.

It’s strange, because you weren’t perfect but you still had a special place in my heart. Something about you was pivotal, something about you was comforting, something about you felt safe, like coming home after a long time, like I’m finally on the right track, in the right direction. Unlike all other years, you left an impact, you felt right.

2017 — I’m ready.

I don’t know what to expect, I don’t know what you hold for me, I don’t know if you’ll be better or worse, but I know I’m ready for you. I know that I can handle the bad moments and embrace the great moments. I know that I’m open to learning and appreciating why things won’t turn out the way I wish they could. I’m ready because I’m letting go of the past and willing to start over with you. I’m ready to buy a new book with empty pages so we can write the story together. I’m ready for you to give me a wonderful story to write.

Take my hand and take your pen and let’s work together as a team, for the first time, I’m on your side and I’m willing to work with you.

2017, I haven’t met you yet but I’m already in love with you.